Exuviae
Mara Klein
Lilia Chatalbasheva
[Noun] An animal's cast or sloughed skin, especially that of an insect larva;
originates from a Latin word meaning "things stripped from a body"
The forest is a graveyard
The cicadas have left their corpses behind;
they populate the tree line,
Clustered on the oaks –
Exuviae
Like the strips of paint
That peel limply off the house
in the summer heat
Spirits mingle in the air as they call out
Sending tremors through membrane and muscle;
A barrier of sound closes around you
Sweetly smothering
Muting the beat of your heart
Overtaking the rhythm of your lungs
Home has turned into a lunar maria
No wind exhales on yellow grass –
The only vibrations
Are the ballads of thousands of souls
Trying to find each other
You’ve been working on the old truck
Rust worming its way
Under your nail beds,
Pulse fluttering thick and sickly in the humidity
Its engine is silent – why do you expect to hear me still?
No longer does Doppler
herald my homecoming
You turn on the radio,
Stretching the antenna up
As if praying for salvation
Flesh cut by gravel –
You kneel like a sinner in the driveway
Singing along to hackneyed 70’s rock songs
Humming along to static
During the witching hour
You emerge from the house
The ghosts are chittering –
I sit beside you on the porch steps
As I listen to you bargain with God
I curl close, catlike – but
My blood sits heavy and cold in my skin
Soaking through my cells
And into yours
Making you shiver
As morning claws itself
Across the Earth
I see you standing in the yard, buffeted,
as hundreds of voices echo out in
One ebbing chant
All you can hear is them screaming
All I can hear is you screaming
Your grief
Hisses like steaming milk,
Sweet and thick and scalding
Life ripples
Through you
Past lagging into present perception
The ringing in your ears
Is tinnitus of the soul
Auditory exuviae
I cover your ears –
For a moment,
The oaks are exorcized
But you turn and leave me
Next to a fresh grave in the grass
I sit on the headstone,
Just another ghost that wandered in from the trees
And left their body behind
You slam the door
Sound slowly circles us–
The cicadas begin to wail